I begin by saying,sin,rebellion,is not "ok"

Having sadi this,let me remind us why Jesus Came,died,& resurrected;
He came for the fulfillment of the 613 commands,Law,which only He could keep:Isaiah wrote of Him in chapter 53...even the woman of issue knew,only He had kept the 613 laws,on His tallit(garmet) and that He Had The Authority to Heal.
Paul wrote that he questioned why  he did the things he did not want to do, & didn't do the things he did wan to do. This is how it is,for us,at times;this is when we thank Jesus' Own Holy Ghost  for forgiveness, & pray in The Holy Spirit of God to 'get over ourselves' and continue to serve Him.
We ponder too much on what Paul may have been plagued with,yet,pay little heart or thought into what we ourselves are doing.When I began to see what I do, as active prayer,then, the sin which easily beset me was not so difficult,for I remember,Jesus conquered sin,as well as hell & death.This leaves me free from fear,doubt,insecurity,guilty & self-hatred,leaving me more compassionate and willing to utilize what time I have on this earth,to share this Good News with others.
It is no longer I who breathe,but,He Who Lives in me Who breaths for me.
Let's pray
Father,we come in The Name of Jesus,and we come to thank You for such Self Sacrifice,that You would "make all things new",including us.May we go forth,in Your Bidding,to gsin souls to Jesus,Your BeLoved son,for Your glory.It's in This Blooded Name we praise You.amen.Goodnight. love,Your children.Amen.